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What do you say to your child when they ask “why are you losing your job daddy?” The question seemed so innocent coming from my daughter as we drive together from school to our escape house. Explaining to your daughter that I am losing my job because I stood for something and what was right was a hard convo today. I know that I must stand for what’s right as hard as it seems to be able to do in today’s upside down world. My daughter asked me if I thought I was making the right decision and without hesitation I told her “yes.” Today being a father of four is challenging and resulted in more loss of sleep. Tonight not because of laundry, dishes or finishing up work but because I fear for my right to provide for my family. I fear for my ability to by my own labor feed, clothe and take financial responsibility for the family I’ve created. I’m not looking for handouts but the ability to provide for my family and to live our lives as unobstructed and controlled from outside my home. Is this too much to ask? Is it too much to take ownership for one’s family and to think that I can guide them to something great? Tonight this father of four lays here sleepless because the world has changed and my heart says the change may not be for the better.